Energy...

One of the main purposes of my trip to India has been in search for this new type of spirituality.  Because so far no religion has done it for me.  I seem to pick and choose certain aspects from various religions that I put into my own spirituality.  In my own search for this I have many of my own theories but I will not bore you by restating my whole life philosophy.  But if you are interested in me babbling on about a current religious/philosophical debate then read on.  And if you want to comment, dont hestitate cause I would love to hear another persons perspective on it.

Energy...?  Scientists have determined that there are these tiny balls of energy called atoms that make up everything and are essential to all of life.  They are the invisible force that moves everything...(i know interesting way to phrase this uhh)!  Though energy is present everywhere, are you able to see it?  Can you feel it?  Many people in this new age believe they can feel it.  For all those people who are reading this blog, I do not intend to discredit energy feelers (I copywrite that name by the way) and or give it absolute truth, I merely intend on exploring the topic that has been bouncing around my own head.

So energy.  What a cool thing...a tiny nothingness that moves everything.  In physics the study of this energy has become so abstract that it has turned into philosophy.  Feeling energy fields have become a common practice.  Many people can see other humans energy.  I have met and talked to many people who can see auros around others.  This new age thinking is present in various books, horoscopes, and other texts.  The book "The Celestine Prophecy" talks about seeing energy fields not just around humans but around all living things.  And for anyone who is intersted in this type of spirituality that book is a great one to read.

Unfortunately I cannot say that I see any energy fields.  But I can say that I can see the effects of energy...energy transfer, or contact high.  So for example say someone walks into a room and they are bursting with excitment and ENERGY.  Their pure joy and love for life can make everyone in the room just as happy simply by spreading that love with them.  So is that energy...and can other things do that to people?

That gets my into crystal spirituality.  If everything contains little molecules moving rapidly then crystals/gems do as well...right?  In the world of new age crystallography every kind of crystal gives off a different type of energy.  Certain stone may help you find love, or find contentment, or wealth.  Ive become passionate about this crystal I found in Agra, called Cornelion.  This beautiful crystal is hand carved into the Taj Mahal, along with various other precious and semiprecious gems, which make up much of the appeal and expence of the Taj.  When a lazer pointer is shone at any point of the cornelion, the light refracts and the whole crystal illuminates.  No other crystal in the Taj does this.  I have been searching all through india and for this crystal, and though I have found it meshed into other pieces of art I have not found a single solid crystal.  I found out by taking a tour of a marble making shop (a shop that created marble crafts with engraved gems, similar to the way the Taj was built...because the taj was also made of marble and has hand carved gems within it) that each crystal had a certain emotion.  Cornelion is supposed to give peace of mind...again that attracted me because though I may be searching for love or wealth or whatever, right now I am trying to focus on my own personal growth and happiness before I can search for anything more complex.  And to do that I need to be content and with myself...quite my mind of all the other bullshit that is clouding my thinking.

Again is that energy at work...or is it something else?  Is emotion also connected to this thing called energy?  Is emotion the by-product, or the reaction to different energies combining?  I think energy is very powerful, whether you can see it or not.  But to be conscious of how you are pulled toward and against various things is something that everyone should be aware of.

Not to end on a negative or critical note, but I was recently turned a little bit off by crystal spirituality.  As someone who is intersted in this type of spirituality and is always looking to learn and understand more, I was aware that this women at the register of this pizza joint had some crystals lying on her register.  So I asked her what crystals they were...though i have forgotten now what they were...and i asked if i could hold them.  She said yes but as soon as I went grab it she, gasped and grabbed my hand.  In a tense and louder voice she asked if i washed my hands...nope, so respectifully i did and came back.  She handed me the crystal.  I held it in my hands for a few moments, closing my eyes and attempting to feel the crystal.  Feeling its smoothness shape I could tell that it spent some time within water...yep i learned a lot in my years of geology.  Opening my eyes I could see it was a cloudy pale color, yet you couldnt see directly though it.  The lady at the register asked my how I felt.  Well...I didnt answer right away...but i felt a sudden urge of contenment and happiness. Standing their pondering how I felt, I said i didnt know how I felt. Thinking about if that happiness was caused by the crystal or if I was feeling that emotion prior.   But before i could say anything more she snatched it out of my hand and angrily said "well some people cant feel it anyway."  My mood suddently dropped.  This woman was making me feel guilty for not being on the same spiritual wave length that she was on.  What I hate most of all in all religions and spirituality a stuck up-ness involved within all of them.  People deep in any religion, no offense, seem to hold themselves above others thinking that they are more enlightened.  But if someone is more enlightened and or conscious and aware of all their surrounding, then they should be able to communicate and talk with a spiritual peon like myself.  But i aint perfect, I dont expect her to be either but i couldnt help but think about the Celestine Prophecy.  After reading it I am kinda stuck in the mindset of the book, but in this book it talks about how everyone has these control dramas that we come always come back to.  These dramas play out in your minds and we use them to control a situation that we are afraid to put all our energy toward.  In this book it even mentions a specific "guilt me" drama, which came to me after I thought of this interaction later.  I dont know, I am not even sure how much I believe this book to be pure truth, but is nonetheless a good thing to think about.

For all those folks reading this, sorry about babbling on so long and never concluding anything.  I kind of feel like i am writing an essay for a religoin class.  But all I can truly say I have learned from this trip so far is that it is good to try and become aware and conscious of everything around...and if energy ever comes up in conversation, keep an open mind.  And if you feel a strong connection to something, go for it.  I am still working on doing this myself, of getting rid of my inhibitions and growing as a person.  But i guess that is the constant stuggle of life, ever evolving and growing as a person.  "Change is the only constant"...a good friend would always tell me.  Much love, and sending some love energy into my blog via interweb so it can spread to everyone i love out there...hehe.